afraid soompi's thread might be overly flooded with many of my current issues. i decide to write it all in one thread here...so it will get very long though i will try my best to concluded in short sentences/paragraphs as much as i can to go easy on the reader...i do understand if you dont want to read since it is very late at night.. {it's almost 5am where i live}...also i will space each problems out so you wont be/get confuse.

it is normal to proscrasinating...or is it? everyone do it all the time to the point that it becomes a unwritten though some might look back and fixed it while the other don't. And i happen to be the person that dont....starting out in my senior year, where my laziness got the best of me till now. at times, i look back and try hard to fix but in the end, i went back to square one. sometimes i wonder if im a person without any ambition or is it just because im tired of everything that's going on in my life and want to be a little kids in a young adult life? LOooking at myself, i feel pathetic for the fact that Im 21 without a job, or car ever in life and depend on my parents for everyday expense while others who are younger then me have a job and are freely spending money as they wish. Though i know there's things that can't be help but i tried or at least i thought so...sometimes i wish my parents would understand me or at least try to put themselves in my shoe and live the 21st century life instead of basing everything to the time when they are still a teenager/young adults. for god sake, Im 21 not 10 years old...let me out in the real world and experience it on my own. it's not liek they will live with me forever...many times i had dropping hinds, talk to them in daughter-father/daughter-mom type of thing but i feel that it's not progessing the way i wanted to. they are still the same. I even act mature and responsible hoping it will erase whatever thoughts left inside of them about me but it's not working. my parents would want me to be and go anywhere with them...and if i dont, they would ramble on and act very dramatically. {threats, yelling included}.

i feel so low in life as of now and wish somehow they would read this and try to understand me~

um.. probably the wrong section..

i guess you can ask.. have you found out what you really want to do with your life?... some people just take longer, that's all.

Wow...I felt exactly this way...only I'm 16 so I really have no right to compare myself to you x.x I guess it's harder as you grow up =/ But someone once told me, it's never too late. You can always turn things around...just stop sitting there and telling yourself you've reached the end of the road already. But then...it's easier said than done...the hardest part is starting =/ Sorry I'm not much of a help >.<

As for your parents...bleh...mine are kinda like that too...but one day I kinda just snapped and told them I have to grow up one day and they needa stop being so overprotective They've loosened up...but yeah, as for yours...it might just take longer, but they'll realize eventually that you're not a little kid anymore =/

I can vaguely relate to you, but I've seen ppl in this situation before so I know where you're coming from. I think procrastination is ok to some extent, but I think you're over doing it right now.

I understand u 1000%...im in very similiar situation. im about 2 years older, so i should be crying right now.
My mom usually do threats..she will say things like "If u leave home to soon then ur life wont turn out well, and watever friends u think you have wont be there for you" and im thinking im 22, leave home too soon? My dad does it differently he will talk about the decision i make(which when i think back werent half bad)....he will find a hole or a mistake...knocking down any confidence i have in myself. and say....its because im older and more experience...thats why I know better. I use to sit back and depend and watch the years of my life go by....because i felt that I wasnt smart enough to be an adult, even if i tried. Right now at 23...its better but i still dont have that first job yet lol. But they r being more relaxed because they saw how determine and mature i was being. I dont think ur parents r purposly trying to be mean...they just want u to be safe....and being at home with them...where they can see u everyday..is safe for u to them. *shrug* I think that u may of tried enough talking and showing how mature u r......its time to take baby steps. Maybe look for a pt job, maybe u can have ur parents involve in helping u, since they r going to be in it anyways. Its easy to want independents, but if u have been dependent for so long.....its super hard to be. So baby steps....Can u drive?

Im sorry that im not much help...there is a lot going on in my head about this. I dont know what to type. If u want to talk to me more....msg me .

I feel the same way as you... but I'm a freshman in high school. i started getting really lazy in 8th grade and such. i had this whole issue and stuff and i was at the point where i couldnt even believe in myself anymore to even graduate... luckily some of my internet friends cheered me up and gave me some advice.. so i'm doing good now...